December 9th, 2005
So here's the "My year in review" thingy that Summer posted. The first sentence of the first post of every month.
Well, my first update in this thing.
Ug, I feel bad.
Yay the end of the school year!
Everyone has a boyfriend.
Well it's been a while since I updated...... it's been an interesting time.
So last thursday I went to drawing class, we all had had to do a self-portrait and mine was of my headphones, and I used real wires in it.
Well I just made a monumental purchase/decision.
ah, updating LJ at work.
Wow. Well that's interesting.
MONKEYS BECAUSE CORTNEY SAID SO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Current Mood: high
Current Music: Judging Offspring
December 7th, 2005
ah, updating LJ at work. Tomorrow I have work and then my Art History final (gotta read the book tonight!) and then I am done done done! With the term. Last weekend was a blast! On Friday we saw Aeon Flux, it was pretty damn cool, they got the style just right, if not the characters. Aeon was freakin' hot in it I must say. Trevor was a disappointment but not as bad as I thought he might be at least. Then on Saturday David Cortney and I went up to Portland. We hung out with Rayne and Trebor and Jen, then they all (except for Trebor) went to see Rasputina in a bar in downtown, while I went to the Holocene, this club place, and saw RJD2. T'was a lot of fun. It took like 2-3 hours before he even played, first there was a normal dj spinning, he was pretty good, then this MC named Magesdiq (with his DJ, DJ Spoon backing him up) came on stage. He was pretty cool, he's all rastafarian, and all his rhymes were about believing in yourself and doing the things that make you happy, making life worth living. Very positive vibe, a rare thing in rap music. Finally, RJD2 took the stage, he spun a show for about 45 minutes with a break in the middle, then an "encore" of 15 minutes. Most everything in his show I recognized, he mixed up his songs really interestingly together. One of my favorite songs ever, "Chicken-Bone Circuit" he did some impressive beat-juggling in the beginning of. "Iced Lightning" off of his new album was probably my favorite song of the night, he did some awesome stuff with it. After the show he was selling stuff and stuff and I went up and bought a cd of "unreleased instrumentals" so far it's pretty cool, not amazing but eh. Also I got him to sign my turntable hat! Yay! I like having random things signed by people, it goes well with my PPG wallet signed by Jessicka. Well, I should get back to work now. Bye bye!
Current Mood: complacent
Current Music: AFI - Silver and Cold
November 21st, 2005
Well here I am procrastinating before going to bed and not getting enough sleep. But I find myself not caring much. I dunno. I feel really outside myself lately, outside my life. I feel claustrophobic in my room. I know part of that is the many piles of mess that have gotten pretty bad in here, they remind me of my laziness and my failure to do anything productive lately, plus they just get in the way. However, I feel pretty good in that I have finished 2/3 of my final project for Drawing class, due on Tuesday. That class has been really the best thing in my life this term, and I feel sad that I didn't put more effort into it. I just love my teacher and all the students in the class, it has such a nice atmosphere. Plus its where Raychel is, ooooh ooooh Raychel got me a Dandy Warhols shirt, signed by Zia (it says "nice vid" because Raychel showed her my video for Scientist that I made last year). That reminds me, we all have to buy our fucking DW tickets! Can't let that slip by! I think I'll make sure to wear my shirt on Tuesday.
I see the horizon approaching me; the end of this chapter in my life, and I'm scared. I have such a hard time handling the responsibilities I have now, the idea of being in the "real" world scares me beyond anything else. I don't feel like my schooling is getting me the skills that I'll need to get the kind of job I want. I can only blame myself though, half of it is me not figuring out my schooling sooner and half is me not putting the effort into it that I should be.
We saw Harry Potter 4 today, twas pretty neat.
I so want this term to end, but at the same time I really really don't want it to. My sanctuary (my room) isn't giving me comfort right now, everything feels so temporary and yet forever fixed at the same time. Like nothing will change unless I make it change, but at the same time I know that it can't stay the same forever either. In other words, there's really only one course of action, and that is to fucking take action.
I always tell myself I need to make art more often. Laziness, a lack of ideas, a lack of skills or any combination of the three usually stop me, I barely do enough to get through my classes. Why do I think I can be an artist? I tell myself that I'll end up at some random advertising company designing cereal boxes or something, but I don't even know if I'm on the right track for that, let alone something better.
It wasn't that long ago that I spent hours into making cases, I need to do it more. It feels so useless sometimes though. So what if I have some cds and dvds sitting around here? But how do I get it out? And most of them so far aren't that original (i.e. they are mostly made of appropriated art). Next term I'm taking intro to Dreamweaver, one thing that I really do need to do is make myself a real website, not just my stupid deviantart site. Somewhere I can feel proud to send someone who wants to see my art. Somewhere with the best of my stuff, and it doesn't have to be limited to images either. Yes, grand ideas that won't be realized any time soon.
As long as I spend a portion of every day working on something, anything, I'll feel ok.
But now I think it's finally time for me to go to bed.
Tomorrow I get to use my new mp3 player, looking forward to that.
Current Mood: discontent
Current Music: The Dandy Warhols - Heavenly
November 15th, 2005
Well I just made a monumental purchase/decision.
This last weekend I began the process of moving my music collection to a more fully digital form. In other words, I ripped all hundredesque of my cds. My original plan was to sell about 40, keep 60, and attempt to at some point, buy an mp3 player somewhere in the 4 - 10 gigabyte range. So tonight I got online and started researching, started with ipods, then looked into the ipod mini, which I could've gotten for around $150 for a 6 gb model. Finally it hit me DUH I don't have to be shackled to Apple's tit! I personally think ipods are really great, but nothing I'd seen seemed quite right for me. I looked into products made by Creative, because as a brand I trust them (I've liked Creative since our old 386 computer, and they've always been good at what they do, a great name in audio) and the players that David and Cortney have are both really cool, aesthetically and functionally.
I suppose I'll just cut to the chase here and say I bought a 40 gig Creative "Nomad Jukebox Zen Xtra" for $204. I originally wanted the 30 gig one, that was more than good enough, but walmart.com had the 40 gig one for less than a dollar more. It'll be here around next week sometime, and I am so super jazzed. It's kinda like an ipod, but with a design that just is more.... me. And like half the price. Oh, and I read plenty of reviews of the thing, got to know its ins and outs.
Many of you are probably going "I thought Jesse was having financial troubles, how can he afford this?" I shall answer this question. First off, because of this decision, I rewent through my cds, and am now keeping only 37 of my cds, selling the rest. One must also realize that I will forever save money after this decision, because my buying cds will drop immensely. Not that it's been that high recently anyway. But these are all bullshit justification answers. I couldn't let them stack up alone. No, the other half of this monumental decision/purchase is the decision to sell one of my CDX's. I really only need one (well I really don't need either, but I can't accept getting rid of them both just yet) to do scratching and effects and looping, which are the things I use it for. Chances are my new Zen mp3 player will be able to hook up to the channel on the mixer where it used to be, and I can play anything from my entire collection as my backing track. Anyway, my CDX should garner me somewhere between five and six hundred, I checked ebay and they range from 500 to 750 on there, I'll try to sell it for 600 because that's about what I paid for it. So that will pay for my new player plus 400 dollars onto my credit card debt. Win/win situation really. Now I just need to borrow a digital camera from the library at some point to put up pictures of it. Maybe I could try and sell it somewhere that's not ebay, I wonder if a local thing could be cool to try? Passing it on to someone by hand would be very satisfying. We shall see what happens.
Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: Nirvana - Lithium
October 12th, 2005
Here I am, on the computer during my gap between work and Art History. I'm falling asleep in this chair, I'm not even looking at the screen, my eyes are clased and my head leaning back on the chair. Anyway, my life recently has been kinda up and down. Extremes of sleep and awake. Like today, I got 8 hours of sleep last night but here I am falling asleep. God, Art History and our teachers blabbing on and on and uh and uhhhhummm isn't going to help keep me awake. And then I still have 3 hours of fucking journal class after that. Ugh. However, the times where I'm bored and sleepy is only half the time, the other half I've found myself capable of actually doing things. Yesterday I sat in a hallway in Onyx Bridge and drew a picture of it (the hallway) for three hours. Last Saturday I finally finished the pulp/etheric custom figures I started months ago. They're pretty cool, or at least the bad guy one is. And then Monday night I stayed up way too late working on a song, and I came up with a really good start. So yeah, my days are really fractured. They've kinda always been like that, it's not like this pattern is really anything new, but sometimes its just weird and annoying. Last night Raychel (Zia from DW's sister, her name is spelled with a y I found out) came by and gave me stuff! A DW shirt which despite being and XL fits me pretty good, a vhs copy of Dig! (a documentary about the Dandy Warhols and the Brian Jonestown Massacre) which I hope we watch soon. Also a mix cd she made for me of two of her favorite artists; Ben Harper and Jack Johnson. She was all like "you probably won't like it but you asked to hear it". I listened to it earlier while I was working, it's really chill acousticy folksy rock stuff. Obviously not my "thing" but there were totally some songs I got into. I'll rip it and go through it more thoroughly later. Well I have to get to horrible class now. Ugh. Class. Better than work I suppose but still.
Current Mood: tired
Current Music: Portishead Live in NYC
October 4th, 2005
|06:19 pm - I am now one step away from The Dandy Warhols|
so last thursday I went to drawing class, we all had had to do a self-portrait and mine was of my headphones, and I used real wires in it. I spent the day drawing with this girl who I think was named Sarah. Her last name is Glass though, that's so cool. I think she's a lesbian too. Anyway, she was really cool and told me she'd bring me some cds by some cool bands. See, I had burned a mix for that class, and she really liked it, as did a few other people in the class. It was so cool to be referred to as "the dj". Hehe. So the day had been going awesomely already, but then it got even cooler. When my mix ended, I stuck in the new Dandy Warhols cd. Then this girl came up to me and asked if it was that cd, and I said yes and she said she was Zia's (The Dandys' keyboardist) sister! Well I was laying on the ground looking up at her and I immediately sat up and was like whoa! That's so cool! So we talked for a bit and I'm going burn her a copy of Odditorium (her copy is missing some songs and is in the wrong order). Oh by the way, she's not in the class, she like helps supply the room and stuff. She said she'd be there on thursdays, but then today (tuesday) she showed up and asked me for help with these huge canvas rolls. Then near the end of class we were talking. This is her first year at UO but she spent five at LCC. I so want to know her age, when she heard I was 21 she commented that I was so young. Anyway, she had an experimental drawing class right after ours was done, so I said I'd see her on thursday and that was that. She seems totally cool and I look forward to getting to know her better. For all I know she's 30 and attached, eh my plan is to just hang out with her as much as I can and hopefully I can learn these things in time. She's totally cute, has great glasses and is kinda big but not bad. A cool person to be friends with if nothing else, right?
Current Mood: artistic
Current Music: Tenacious D - Tribute
August 23rd, 2005
OH MY FUCKING GOD! Go to www.warlordsofmars.com/dandy.html to preview the Dandy Warhols' new album. I'm listening to it right now and it's awesome. Way way awesome. Can't wait to show David. Can't wait for this album (it'll probably be my next "exception"). Ooooooh can't wait.
Current Mood: excited
Current Music: DANDY MOTHAFUCKIN' WARHOLS
Sometimes it's annoying living in Eugene instead of Portland. Today was one of those times. As a few posts ago says, August 23rd (today) is when Scarling's new cd comes out. But I called every record store in town and no one has it. I tried Best Buy too, had high hopes there as I got Jack Off Jill's Clear Hearts at a Best Buy. But alas no!!! Looked it up online, but special-ordering it through CD World was actually a dollar cheaper, and will probably take about the same time. Two years ago I special-ordered their first cd at Face the Music, it came the next day. I miss Face the Music. Dammit. Oh, and I know I said I wasn't buying anything, but this is a rare exception (exceptions will be much rarer than they used to be, don't worry).
Current Mood: frustrated
Current Music: CCR - Susie Q
Ya know, I'm fucking broke. Worse than that I'm in super amounts of debt. Over three thousand dollars. And that is of course not counting my college loans. That's straight up credit card debt. I think I'm a classic case of a person who shouldn't have gotten credit cards, because I have abused them and am now in deep shit. Every so often I realize this and put a few things up for sale online, and vow to "not buy things". But this time, I really need to stick to it. I put a bunch of stuff up on Amazon, some cds and movies (no big deal b/c I can copy those that I want to keep). I've started eating lunch at home (easily one of the biggest drains of my money recently has been food, every day eating lunch out) but it sucks ass because I don't have a long enough time to make anything better than a PBJ sandwich. Ugh. Oh well, needs to be done. Three things actually already sold, which is awesome (100th Window, Requiem for a dream, and Young Frankenstein). Combined it's like, 12 dollars. Going straight to my debt it is! Not eating out will easily make the most impact, b/c I really haven't bought as much stuff lately as I used to. Although I am buying drugs now.... just another reason other things need to go go go! Yeah. That's my wallowing in debt post. I suppose I'll make a more general post later.
Current Mood: complacent
Current Music: Rasputina - Howard Hughes
August 10th, 2005
Albums I'm looking forward to:
Scarling - So Long Scarecrow (August 23)
Danger Mouse & MF Doom - Danger Doom (Adult Swim concept album) (October ?)
The Dandy Warhols - Odditorium or Warlords of Mars (September 13)
Fort Minor - Rising Tied (Mike Shinoda's solo album) (Late summer?)
And someday Cut Chemist will release a solo album! Someday. Tool as well if I'm looking that far into the future.
Dude, I just went to Cut Chemist's website and there's this awesomely cute video of him performing for like, his mom or something when he's a teenager. It was so cute. And fucking awesome.
That is all.
PS John, I listened to the punk mix yesterday, I especially love the opening Flogging Molly track. Thanks so much!
Current Mood: indescribable
Current Music: Collide - Transfer